Random Nonsense #23

     I think Tokyo Ghoul is starting to become one of those mainstream anime that newcomers to the Anime universe tend to invoke as their rite of passage. That and Shingeki no Kyojin (Attack on Titan, as most Westerners call it). It's as if the phrase "I've watched Tokyo Ghoul/SnK" proves that you are an ardent fan of Anime. Well, it's a bloody insult to someone like me, who has been watching Anime ever since the start of Primary School and been through so many genres that sometimes I can't keep track of what I've finished.

      I've read psychological horror, like Higurashi no Naku Koro ni (When the Cicadas Cry) and Uzumaki (Spiral), that made me sleep with the lights on for 2 whole months. I've read light-hearted and ridiculous childish shows, like Yumeiro Patissiere and all three seasons of Shugo Chara, that made me embarrassed for even being slightly entertained...and having a crush on the Tsundere boy character (INTJs again, I'm sorry). And then there's the Romances, comedic like Ouran High School Host Club (OHSHC), My Little Monster and Kaichou wa Maid-sama, then very touching ones like Angel Beats and Anohana. Of course, what I've watched from the start until now, the long-lasting series like Naruto and Bleach, the former of which I grew up with.

The Psychological Horror Genre (skip this if you have a weak heart)
     I prefer these in manga form, since the colour and bad art can take away from the atmosphere. These pictures still scare the shit out of me, especially since my kind of good memory makes me remember exactly what the scenes are.
a) Higurashi no Naku Koro ni (When Cicadas Cry)

b) Uzumaki (Spiral)

Light-Hearted Childish Anime
     I don't even know why I am entertained by these kinds of Anime. Well, they are perfect for watching after reading a horror manga because all you want to do at that point is to curl up in bed with all the lights on and watch cute stuff. I don't know what it is about Japanese horror. I have become immune to jump scares in that I recover in less than 5 seconds, but the subtle horror of the Japanese variant haunts me for months. Also, I like Tsukiyomi Ikuto from Shugo Chara, though even as a kid I thought it was very freaky how he was way too skinny. Seems like I had an appreciation for muscles even as a kid...how shallow of me.
a) Yumeiro Patissiere

b) Shugo Chara

Comedic Romances
     Like the above, I watch these when I just need something to feel a shallow kind of happiness. I think this is the option I go with when I don't want to feel sheepishly guilty about watching a show way below my age group. Also, it's romance and I'm a girl. As much as I don't behave like one most of the times and have more shared interests with guys than with girls, one shared interest I don't have is that...well...I am undoubtedly straight and I like romance, at times. Also, these kind of gentlemenly guys who are cheeky and kind...and secretly very physically attractive (the unrealistic abs and such), are very unrealistic for me so...it's a kind of fantasy maybe?
a) Ouran High School Host Club

      It's a hard choice for me to pick between Kyouya Ootori and Hikaru Hitachiin. Usually people can't choose between the Hitachiin twins, but for me, I like the older Hikaru more. If you think the two of them are too similar, then you haven't watched the show to its completion. They have quite the contrasting personality. As for Kyouya and Hikaru, it's not that I prefer one over the other. I think I like Kyouya more as an Anime character, that kind of cool and aloof guy who is rather nerdy and smartassed. But if I have to picture them in reality, then I think I prefer Hikaru...he's quite an ENTP.

b) My Little Monster

     I think I've voiced my opinion on Yoshida Haru vs Yoshida Yuuzan before. Usually I like the younger brothers of brother pairs in Anime, but I guess Yuuzan is an exception. I mean take a look at Ao no Exorcist, I like Yukio more than Rin. Look at Naruto, I like Sasuke more than Itachi (here comes the flood of hate). Twins are an exception, as in the previous anime. But I like Yuuzan more...because he is scarily, and suspiciously, optimistic about everything. He also seems to be twisted in his own way and has hidden motives. Makes for a more interesting character, don't you think?

c) Kaichou wa Maid-sama

     Everyone loves Takumi Usui, yes, yes. But have you ever thought about it...how much Igarashi Tora reminds you of Draco flipping Malfoy? Arrogant, check. Rich, check. Prestigious family, check. Blonde, almost platinum-blonde, check. Aristocratic, yet infuriatingly haughty handsome, check. Yeah, Igarashi Tora is Draco Malfoy. And you know what. Draco Malfoy is probably the only fictional character who is:
1. My most hated character personality-wise, but because he is so damn attractive, my shallow side actually wins over and I totally still have my crush intact from like...the first movie, when he was a kid and I was a kid.
2. I actually ship enthusiastically (Draco x Hermione, Dramione for short) with another character, but still won't lay my flipping hands off. Like I ship Cherik, and I like Charles, but I'll abandon him for the ship. I won't do that for Draco Malfoy.
     So I'll come down as the most shallow girls in the history of shallow because we Harry Potter fans all know what a cowardly piece of shit Draco Malfoy is and how over the clouds his arrogance is. But I can't help feeling sympathy for his situation and wanting to believe that he can be a better person. That or he is absolutely charming and looks like a bloody prince. Platinum blonde hair and silver-gray eyes? How the hell do you even get that among these...mudbloods? I cant say that, by the way, I'm like 45% Slytherin...55% Ravenclaw.

Touching Romances
     It's like I love torturing myself. I cry very easily when I am able to feel what the characters feel. But make no mistake, I don't actually approve of certain things and feel disgusted by the way some guys in the anime treat girls like they are fragile...I'll show you fragile when I snap your leg in half. I can just feel the emotion of the character...through the screen.
a) Angel Beats

     Some people would think I like Hideki Hinata from the number of times I cried at the scene where he confessed to Yui. Actually, I cry every single time. It's like age doesn't harden me up or something. But no, I don't like him, at all. Just because he becomes a meaningful character once throughout the show doesn't clear up his name as the main comedic character. Yeah, screw comedic characters, unless they've got a really deep side like the Hitachiin twins. I like Yurippe. Many reasons for that, but yes, a female character. Woohoo.

b) Ano Hana

     These two...Tsuruko and Yukiatsu...they come as a pair. I like them as a pair. I don't care what anyone says. If they disprove of this pairing, or ship Yukiatsu with Menma, I will fight the shit out of that person. I will flay their remains over the world and tear them into pieces. If these two aren't a pair after the amount of shit Tsuruko has to put up with, then I don't know...Tsuruko must be a bloody idiot. Usually, in animes, if a character sticks with another character for that long because she has romantic feelings for him, they will bloody end up together. Look at Naruto and Hinata. She stuck with him for like...I don't know...and they worked out. I would call these two bloody idiots, because no one in reality would even do that unless they have no life and no aspirations, but its an anime.

My Nostalgic Feels - Popular Shounen Anime
     Ah yes, these anime that I grew up with. I grew up with the Harry Potter characters and at the same time, the Naruto characters. The same love I have for Harry Potter, knowing all the names of the spells, even the different subjects taken at Hogwarts, having my own house (it used to be Slytherin, now I'm in Ravenclaw) and my own wand. That kind of love is also the love I have for the Naruto series and what it has taught me. Naruto and Sasuke in particular. Well...Bleach is nostalgic too, but you don't actually grow up with the characters.
a) Naruto

     Yes, I am a scum. I like Draco Malfoy in Harry Potter and now I like the biggest scum in Naruto, Uchiha Sasuke. I've explained why even after the kind of turn his personality took, I still persist in liking him. It's not that his personality changed, per se, he is still the cold Tsundere INTJ Sasuke, it's just the "deepening of an existing problem", which seems to be something I apply to INTJs a lot. Anyway, Sasuke...what can I say? I tried to climb a bloody tree like him, by concentrating chakra on the bottom of my feet. But just like how I'm actually a filthy mudblood, I also have no ninja skills. I fell on my bloody back. I tried to do the Goukakyou no Jutsu, aka Great Fireball Jutsu, and Chidori, but I also failed. Sigh, I wanted to learn Sasuke's jutsus man!

b) Bleach

     Do you not see the pattern here? Draco Malfoy. Igarashi Tora. Uchiha Sasuke. Kuchiki Byakuya. Prestigious family, rich, arrogant, regarded within their shows as good-looking. Yeah, I'm shallow as hell...or I just tend to like INTJs in shows. Anyway, Kuchiki Byakuya, the frigging guy who makes pink look like that manliest colour just by the "I can't find a fuck to give" face he has while using his bankai. And he cuts people into a little pieces as they explode in blood with those pink petals. Yup, very lethal and manly. Also, Byakuya as a kid is bloody adorable. What's with these snobby, arrogant fucks who look like the cutest things when they were kids? Tell me you didn't have a bloody crush on the little arrogant git that was Draco Malfoy back when you were like 7 or 8. I dare you. You had a crush on the little blonde, admit it. On second thought, don't. I go all Yandere when fangirling.

     It's a bloody insult, is what it is, when people watch just one anime and then declare themselves an Anime fan. Also, it doesn't help that half the people who watch Tokyo Ghoul have only watched the Anime, when the Manga is much longer and complicated. The Anime was good, but it lacked a lot of the things the Manga had and...I don't know why they ended it the way they did. I guess I shouldn't be complaining. I was defending the Harry Potter movies and LOTR movies despite having read the books. They weren't exactly loyal to the books...might I remind everyone how they totally condensed a whole chapter of Snape's memories into 30 seconds? And yes, I read almost all the Harry Potter books before the movies came out. I don't even understand why my parents excuse my sister for not being able to read them as a 9-year old when I read them as a 7-year old having come from China.

     Anyway, that's not the point. I'm just rather annoyed, I suppose, that the deeper meaning of certain shows is lost on some people. Tokyo Ghoul is very thought-provoking and does it not make you wonder - what would you have done in Kaneki's situation? Would you have continued to remain "kind", yet naively hurting everyone? Or would you have chosen to harden up and learn to be selfish, with the knowledge that to preserve some, you had to give up others?

     The opening of Tokyo Ghoul, Unravel, is a beautiful song that reflects Kaneki's own doubts. The fact that within the song, he keeps repeating lines that distinctly contradict - "I'm breakable, unbreakable", etc - shows that sort of uncertainty and the entire moral subjectivity of his actions. But I think the lines that appeal to me and I am able to relate to the most is "I've completely changed; I can't change back" followed by a few lines later "Think back on who I was" and "So please just remember me." You know that Kaneki doesn't like what he has to become, in order to protect what is precious to him, and the maturity of it all - that he has decided to pull through and change himself - makes him a rather likeable character.

     Anyway, here is the entire kanji lyrics and translated lyrics, accompanied by the fight between Kaneki and Jason, aka the one who tortured him to the point of change.

Kanji Lyrics:
教えて　教えてよ　その仕組みを
僕の中に誰がいるの？
壊れた　壊れたよこの世界で
君が笑う何も見えずに

壊れた僕なんてさ　息を止めて
解けないもう　解けないよ　真実さえ freeze
壊せる　壊せない　狂える　 狂えない
あなたを見つけて

揺れた　歪んだ世界にだんだん僕は　透き通って見えなくなって
見つけないで僕のことを　見つめないで
誰かが描いた世界の中で　あなたを傷つけたくはないよ
覚えていて僕のことを　鮮やかなまま

無限に広がる孤独がくるまる
無邪気に笑った記憶が刺さって
動けない　解けない
動けない　解けない
動けない　動けないよ
Unravelling the world

変わってしまった　変えられなかった
二つがくるまる　二人が滅びる
壊せる　壊せない　狂える　狂えない
あなたを汚せないよ

揺れた　歪んだ世界にだんだん僕は　透き通って見えなくなって
見つけないで僕のことを　見つめないで
誰かが仕組んだ孤独な罠に　未来が解けてしまう前に
覚え出して僕のことを　鮮やかなまま

忘れないで　忘れないで
忘れないで　忘れないで

変わってしまった　ことに paralyse
変えられない　ことだらけの paradise
覚えていて僕のことを

教えて　教えて　僕の中に誰がいるの？

Translated Lyrics:
Tell me, tell me, how it works
Just who lies within me?
I'm broken, broken in the midst of this world
But you're smiling, blind to it all

I'm broken anyway, so I halt my breath
Not even the truth can unravel, no not even the truth. Even reality freezes.
I'm breakable, unbreakable; going insane, unable to lose my mind
I've found you

I'm standing here in a twisted, shaking world. I'm empty and cannot be seen.
Please don't find me...don't look at me.
In this world that someone else imagined, I just don't want to hurt you.
So please remember me - my full, vivid self.

Entangled in the loneliness that fans out endlessly
Strung by the memory of smiling so innocently
I can't move, I can't unravel
I can't move, I can't unravel
I can't move, I can't move
Unravelling the world

I've completely changed; I can't change back
The two entwine; the couple disintegrates
I'm breakable, unbreakable; going insane, unable to lose my mind
I won't defile you

I'm standing here in a twisted, shaking world. I'm empty and cannot be seen.
Please don't find me...don't look at me
Before the future comes completely undone, caught in a pit of solitude set for me
Think back on who I was - my full, vivid self

Don't forget me. Don't forget me.
Don't forget me. Don't forget me.

The change has made me paralysed
In an immutable object paradise
So please just remember me

Tell me, tell me, is there someone inside of me?

     I know this is the worst segue ever, but now for some MBTI...as I scroll through Tumblr...on my phone.

5 Stages of INFJ Stress Levels
Level 1: Ruffled
    I lose my train of though. My words come out huffy and bumbled. I get a little hot and mad that I'm sounding semi-incoherent. My face may flush.

Level 2: Frazzled
     My desk is messy. Or maybe it's my car. Or, my closet. Some place in my bedroom. My bed is unmade. I have this nagging feeling that something is undone or unchecked. I'm slightly less patient than normal and slightly sharper with my words. My hair is somewhat out of place. I'm hurrying a little bit more than usual.

Level 3: Stressed
     I'm behind on my chores. Behind on my paperwork. Behind on everything. I've got headaches, or back pain. My stress is internalised and it's manifesting physically. I'm tired. There's no hiding my shortness of temper now. I'm cross and it shows.

Level 4: Really Stressed
     I'm exhausted. I'm in bed. I'm overtly and overly sensitive. I'm either not talking to you, crying and immobile or I'm tearing you to shreds with my unguarded, obviously angry words. I'm putting off everything I need to do, in denial of the impending due date. In exchange, I'm neat-freak-cleaning at 2am, organising shoes and doing all the little things I've been putting off for months. I'm in super "DON'T TOUCH THAT" mode. Don't touch that. Don't touch me. Don't look at me. Don't breathe too loudly. Why are you breathing the same air as I am? GO. A.WAY.

Level 5: My Whole World is Ending
     Total internal/external destruction. My guard is down. My hair is down. My altruistic nature has calloused and my heart is seared. My intensity has become my propensity and my once empathetic spirit has ceased to exist. At this point, I honestly couldn't care less. I'm indulging in every immoral pleasure that this world has to offer, consequences be damned and it makes me sick to my stomach. This INFJ will combust in 5...4...3...2...And the world is worse off for it.

MBTI Conversation Starter Pack
ISFJ: "How was your day?"
*Frowns* *Irritated glare* "Okay, I guess. And I suppose I should ask "How's yours?""*Rolls eyes*

ISTP: "Sup. Good."
*Smirks* "Good. Sup." I like this person. Cool, laid-back, not pretentiously polite.

INFJ: "How are you?" *stares into your soul as they already know the answer*
Yeah, I suppose I rarely ask such questions while expecting an answer. I do so for a reaction, or to keep to social norms.

ENFJ: "I saw you earlier but i was on my way to the Women's Advocate lunch. Omigosh there was this person...People say they're feminist but then they do X, it's so disgustingly hypocritical! ...How have you been!"
*Weird stare* Did I ask this bloody bloke to narrate his day to me? Do I look like I care? ...Hypocritical...everyone is hypocritical e.g. you saying that someone else is hypocritical. *Forced smile* "I'm great."

ESFJ: *To an introvert* "Come on! You have to talk to me! How's school going?!"
"Tch...can you not be so loud and excited? It's okay." *Sideways stare as I walk away*

ESFP: "Hi! *starts singing badly and loudly to Taylor Swift* *runs into a wall for comedic effect*
*Pretends that I didn't notice ESFP's presence and walks away as fast as possible*

ISTJ: *to ESFP* "What are you doing?"
"Good question. I have no idea." *Nods and walks away*

ENFP: "Hey! *executes secret handshake with completely stranger*"
*Resists the urge to smirk in amusement* Loud, but rather adorable in that weird way...rather like an overly excited dog.

INTJ: *Is getting odd looks from doing ENFP's handshake so well* "What...?"
"Nobody expects us to be friends with an ENFP is "what", except I think mine is more believable." *Shrugs* "See you around, bro."

ISFP: *Is oblivious to the awkwardness* "Hey, we should have a secret handshake! Ready?"
*Hisses* "Hey, drop it. Don't patronise INTJ anymore. He's already being judged!"

ESTJ: "Hi! Did you get that job you applied for?"
"Yes. Obviously."

ENTJ: "Yes, but I turned it down because I got an interview for presidency."
*Snorts* "Show off." *Secretly very impressed*

INTP: "Lol. There was this Obama thing on the internet..."
*Stops in interest* ....... "Oh, you mean ___. I saw that already." *Loses interest and leaves*

INFP: "Would you like to hear this poem about ___?"
"......Hello to you too. Sure, if you want to." Just because I don't want to deal with your depressed expression if I don't.

ENTP: "No, but..." *Going into another heated argument* *ISFJ leaves, crying*
Sighhh... "Dude, did you have to? By the way, if we follow the thinking that ____, you are actually wrong." *Glares* "Hmph, admit it, I win."

ESTP: *turns to ENTP* *Everyone else leaves, crying*
*Stares in amusement* The brainless jock vs the cheeky ass who won't stop arguing? Hmmmm~

MBTI and Knowledge for It's Own Sake
ESTP: Does it relate to what I'm currently doing? Is it about people or events?
Power is knowledge, my friend. It may not be related now, but it could be important in the future.

ESTJ: I know many extremely practical things.
Oh, would you like me to hire you then? *Smirks* Practical knowledge is better used for application.

ESFP: I like (or am bored) that *you* know these things.
And I suppose that's because you are dumb as hell and have never thought about it? Yeah, though so.

ESFJ: Can I use it?
Again...why does practicality matter so much to Sensing types? I know it is what defines them, but see the link between theory and practice, for goodness sake!

ENTP: I am a sponge and I think deeply about everything I soak up.
And that is incredibly attractive in a person, I must admit. Someone who is able to converse with wit and intelligence about everything, with his own opinion. Again, I don't want to be given a link to a document...I know Google too, thanks.

ENTJ: I have to learn everything for my plan.
Then I'll learn everything to ruin it...if I don't already know.

ENFP: Learning, yay!
*Raises an eyebrow* Hmmm...you are interested? So, did you know that penicillin is made from fungi and that you can treat fungal infections with fungi antibiotics? And did you know about the Marshmallow Test? *Continues to no end*

ENFJ: Mad respect.
*Huffs* Of course.

ISTP: Educating yourself is good self-improvement.
I agree, but you don't seem to like some of my more theoretical knowledge though.

ISTJ: More things I know, more there is to know.
That's what's beautiful about knowledge. You continue growing infinitely.

ISFP: Knowledge and theory translated into artistic expression.
That's impressive. I respect people who can focus knowledge into one area of passion and develop a niche. I just tend to know a whole bunch of random stuff.

ISFJ: I value smarts in people, but I'd rather be practical.
But have you thought about how ___, maybe it's because ___ but that I read that ___ *Completely aware that the ISFJ is lost/does not care, but continues anyway*

INTP: The world fills me with wonder.
Me too, INTP, me too.

INTJ: I have a theory and an experiment to prove it.
Oh? Please tell. I would like to refine it by argument before you test it out.

INFP: Cool! i like absorbing new information, but I'm not devoted to uncovering it myself.
Really? Are you not curious about why ___ is ___? I read __, __ and __ about it, but I think it's more a combination of all that and it's really ___ but I can't exactly prove it.

INFJ: I have to learn a lot to back up the intuitive leaps I make.
And that is why I love my type. Intuitive with no logical backup pushes my curiosity to search for rationality.

NFs/NTs in the MBTI Community
ENFJ: On a therapeutic mission, answers EVERYTHING patiently.
You know what's wrong with even the most typical of ENFJs? They are too BORING. Patient? I love pushing people's limits and teasing them. These people will take my verbal beating, take it to heart and then not even give me a funny reaction. Fucking annoying.

INFJ: Cutest klutz with the weirdest posts. Learns code.
I do know HTML coding, from doing blogging. Also, define "weird". "weird" is something you don't understand, and thus it is knowledge. Bitch, I win.

ENFP: Ne-ing all over the place, multi-fandom expert
My go-to blogs for finding fan pictures then. Love you guys.

INFP: Klutzier than the INFJs, but in pastel colours, also: best replies
Klutzier than INFJs? That's like walking-into-walls-every-second kind of klutzy!

ENTJ: Types everything and everyone, has a clean template
*Raises hand guiltily* I tend to type people too, easier to get a vague understanding first.

INTJ: Trying to figure out the cognitive functions (surprise!)
*Fist bump* We should be best friends then! Did I mention I really do like the company of INTJs, the stereotypical ones?

ENTP: Random conversations with fellow ENTPs and ENFPs.
Awww...these people won't talk to us, sigh. I guess they rather instigate an argument in real life then. It's better since I'll get to see the look of defeat when I inevitably win.

INTP: Has no particular objective, but casually gathers tons of useless meme knowledge.
Memes are cool!

MBTI and Language
Prefers to know a lot of languages in a medium level: ESFJ, ENTP, ESFP, ISFP
That's really cool! I'm impressed by people who know a lot of languages, but it's not very practical to know a lot at a medium level, is it?

Prefers to know a few languages in a high level: ISFJ, INFP, ESTJ, INFJ, ENTJ
Yup! I would like to pick up German or something after As. Would really be cool, useful and fascinating to learn.

Prefers body language: ENFP, ESTP, ENFJ
....Back to the stone-age you go then...*sneers* ...uneducated cavemen.

Prefers communicating in binary system: INTP, ISTP, ISTJ, INTJ
That's pretty cool! I don't know anything about binary...maybe I should try a little.

Random Nonsense #4

     One of the reasons why I detest Shoujos so much, I think, is the tendency of cheesy romantic scenes to bring out the inherently girly side of me that I don't want to acknowledge. Ao Haru Ride, no matter how I look at it, is a very generic romantic drama, but even as I mock it, I instinctively react to it in ways that disgust me.

     I'm only at Episode 1 and I'm already being so girly with my reactions. For those who have not heard of Ao Haru Ride, which is quite the popular series within Shoujo fans, the story revolves around the female main character, Yoshioka Futaba and the main protagonist, Mabuchi Kou.

     Back in Middle School, Futaba had a crush on a guy named Tanaka Kou. She believed that boys were too rough and violent, but Tanaka Kou was the only exception. He was quite short, soft-spoken and gentle, not to mention, very shy. Futaba herself was a soft-spoken and quiet girl. It was unknown to her then that Kou liked her back. Due to unfortunate reasons (Kou's family issues), he was unable to attend the summer festival that he had invited Futaba too, after which, he disappeared from the school and town altogether.

     The anime starts three years later, with Yoshioka Futaba starred as a drastically different girl. No longer feminine or cute, she attempts to make herself as unattractive as possible, because her popularity with boys in Middle School made her an outcast. She sacrifices her true, girly self for her classmate's approval and hangs around friends that seemingly accept her.

     One day, she accidentally walks into a guy along the school corridor, who rudely calls her "unattractive bread". In her own words, "The voice...the height...It's all wrong...and I didn't see his face...So why did I assume that was Tanaka-kun?" Chasing after him, she finds out that he is indeed Kou, except that he had to change his name due to his parents divorcing. Mabuchi Kou, as he is now called, is also seemingly drastically different from his old self.

     His personality took a completely turn, for he is now more masculine, sarcastic and crude. In addition, he has extremely pessimistic views about his brother and himself. Upon meeting Futaba at the shrine at which they shared a sweet moment as Middle Schoolers, he is reminded that "Oh right, you hates all guys, right? You always have. Seems like you still do."

     Despite Kou being extremely different from the guy she knew before, with her newly gained courage, Futaba brings herself to confess (a little too late, my friend). "Yeah, I hate them, I always have," she admits, but adds that "You were different, Tanaka-kun." Revealing slightly that he has actually not changed, Kou covers his face with his hand (like he did in the past) and admits that "I felt the same way. I...loved you too."

     Even as I was squealing like a little girl at the cute scene...tearing a little because that's how easily I get dragged into this cheesy nonsense, I can't help but notice that he's referring to everything in the past tense. Just as you think, "Wow, it's a 1 episode-long Shoujo!", Kou drops the "We can't go back to that now, though. Things aren't like they were in those days - I'm different. you're different. Which means, that's in the past."

     Futaba's reaction...is what makes me like her more than other Shoujo female characters. Does she cry and burst into tears, embarrassing herself? Despite all the hope she had in her heart that they could return to the past, and having all that crushed, she still thought about him - "Despite the cruelty in his words, there was something lonely in his expression." I know, it's still cheesy, but she's at least a few ranks higher than the other annoying Shoujo females who are either unrealistically strong or way too needy.

     Also, I like the rival guy character, who, in my opinion, is a much nicer guy than Kou. But, we all know who Futaba is going to end up with and it saddens me that poor Touma is going to have his heart broken...

     This guy is probably why I can find it in myself to dislike both protagonists so much. Touma isn't the third person in the love triangle who forcefully inserts himself between the two. Think Shintani Hinata from Kaichou wa Maid-sama and add a dose of gentleness and you get Touma. He is a very earnest person with a strait-laced and honest attitude - a goody-two shoes. Of course, he would suck as a main male protagonist, but he makes for an awesome third character. 

     He does confess and ask her out, supporting Futaba and giving her confidence even while knowing that she still has feelings for Kou. Even then, he doesn't try to persuade her away from those feelings and even encourages her to accept them instead. It's always sad to see characters like this, who have no ill intentions for the main couple, sacrifice themselves for one of the character's happiness. Once again, Shintani Hinata. Although Shintani is probably an Extrovert while Touma is either an Ambivert or Introvert.

Touma and Shintani...why do I always like the side characters more than the main couple?

      Also, Ao Haru Ride has an amazing soundtrack. The Opening isn't too good, in my opinion, but the soundtrack is awesome. It's perfect for a romantic drama like this...although I'm still quite embarrassed that I'm being entertained by a cheesy show like this. I'm certainly not watching the Live Action series though...certainly not (now I'm tempted).

     Now for MBTI stuff, YAY~

1. MBTI Types When Drunk

1. ENFJ

     I don't think that just being drunk...I think that's being high too. That's like...on drugs or something. Scary...ENFJs are known for being surprisingly crazy when they actually manage to go crazy. Next level shit right here...

2. ENFP

     I wasn't trying to take your freedom, man, none of us were. Calm down. If ENFPs are very hyper and scatterbrained to begin with, I shudder to think what a drunk ENFP is. I'll just stand in my safe corner and don't come close until you're sober enough to talk.

3. ENTJ

     Now that's just depressing. I know ENTJs are probably very stressed and everything, but don't turn to alcohol for stress relief. It's going to make you do something absolutely retarded and you will regret it.

4. ENTP

      Probably the only one out of the four that have been revealed that I would go drinking with. It'll be quite hilarious to see these people drunk since they probably don't pose a danger to society or themselves. They are probably just completely out of it in a funny, non-dangerous way.

5. ESFJ

     OH MY GOD, these ExFJs. Crazy people, I tell you. In normal everyday life, they are all sane and perfect and everything nice, and then they get drunk and do the weirdest shit. If you know an ExFJ, probably make sure they stay at least 10M away from the nearest cup of alcohol. You don't want to handle that...Green Man.

6. ESFP

     Please don't get me involved in your "YOLO" nonsense. It's precisely because I only live once that I will never do stupid shit like having one night stands, hooking up with multiple people (yes I know what those are called), smoking weed, etc. I will attempt to persuade these people otherwise but once shit goes down, I'll be out of there real quick.

7. ESTJ

     Girl, is that a challenge? Bitch please, is that water you're drinking? I bet you that I can out-drink you by at least 4 shots. ...I'm probably going to get myself into trouble for this, aren't I? Still, I think ESTJs are probably going to be sane enough not to get both of us into trouble anyway.

8. ESTP

      So your profession is to shorten your life? Great. Still, they probably won't go bat-shit crazy...like those ExFJs over there (I think I need to call the cops on them soon), or the ExFPs (who are getting themselves into all sorts of nonsense I don't even want to know).

9. INFJ

     I don't know what this is supposed to mean. That we INFJs don't get drunk and are just happy to drink with you guys? Well, that's what it is for me, I guess. People drink to get drunk and to get rid of their problems, but I clearly can't do that with my alcohol tolerance and even if I could, I certainly wouldn't. Also, I guess having shots are pretty fun...who drinks alone? Drinking is for bonding and socialising.

10. INFP

     Ermmm....are you okay there? You don't look so well...Don't walk into that wall there now! These are the people I'll get the most worried about because I'm not sure if it's going to drive them into self-destruction or something. ExFJs are making a fool of themselves and I'll keep away from them, but INFPs are another story. Legitimately worried about them.

11. INTJ

     Well, here's our Ni buddy who doesn't seem to agree with our "drinking for socialising" tagline. INTJs do strike me as the type to drink to drown out their emotions and...I don't approve, but it's their choice. I'll continue listening to whatever you have to say...just don't throw up on me and no, I'm not going to drink and encourage you any further.

12. INTP

     That one friend that trips over themselves while drunk...probably pretty funny to watch. The worst thing they can do is to become a catalyst for the other types to do something stupid.

13. ISFJ

     NONONO, STOP THAT ISFJ, STOP LISTENING TO ESFP AND COME BACK HERE! Seriously dude, don't get carried away with all the stupid things ESFP tries to get you to do. You're going to regret it and I know you probably won't do this if you were sober. Sigh...why can't you guys hold your alcohol as well as we do?

14. ISFP

     If you are drunk and you think you are feeling love, that is definitely not love you feel. Alcohol, like most aphrodisiacs, work by increasing the bloodflow in your body, so that is not love, that is lust, so get your ass back out here and stop walking into pubs when you're upset. You're free to drop by for a talk though, if you want. I have Vodka, Gin, Rum, Tequila, etc etc...in limited amounts.

15. ISTJ

     You're trying too hard, ISTJ, but I guess this is a good change from your usually uptight stuff. Just don't get yourself in trouble, okay? Stay away from the ExFxs and stay around the rest of the Introverts or ExTxs and you'll be relatively fine. And that wink isn't working out for you, stop trying. If you get a guy with that, he's not going to be a nice guy, so please.

16. ISTP

     *Glances sideways* Ermmm...someone please call the cops. We have crazy ExFJs in need of mental rehabilitation and a creeper ISTP who is giving everyone perverted looks. Seriously, that face! Argh.

2. Do the MBTI Types Want to Build a Snowman?

Answers

ENFJ: YES!!!

INFJ: Hmmm...yes, what's his name? Can he wear a blue scarf?

ENFP: *sings* Come on let's go and plaayyy I never see you anymoreeee come out the door, it's like you've gone awaayyyy

INFP: Can't we just stay inside and read and drink hot chocolate?

ENTJ: No, I'm busy!

INTJ: Do I have to? *pets cat* Actually, maybe the snowman would be better than people are.

ENTP: Yaaas

INTP: Yes! Actually, I thought of a better way of build a snowman than ever before! Ever!

ESFJ: Yes, but don't forget your scarf!

ISFJ: Yes! I always built snowmen growing up!

ESFP: No, snow angels instead!

ISFP: Only if it can have button eyes that are two different colours.

ESTJ: Sure. You, go get the sticks! I'll make the base.

ISTJ: If someone knows how to and can tell me how...

ESTP: No, it's time for snow tag!

ISTP: No, don't want to.

What Actually Happens

ENFJ: Stays inside to keep INFP company while she reads. Actually more of a bother than good company. Wants to go out but takes it upon himself to stay with INFP. A good guard dog against the others inside. 

INFJ: Trying to teach ISTJ who refuses to start without instructions and keeping an eye on INTJ in case he goes back in the house. Occasionally snaps at ENTP, who keeps bothering her with pranks. Sad that her brother chose to stay inside.

ENFP: Just prancing around and singing. Only difference is that she is now outside.

INFP: Like she said, she stayed inside to read while drinking hot chocolate. Oblivious to the noise outside and frequently annoyed by ENFJ's questions.

ENTJ: Working away on some huge project in his room.

INTJ: Dragged out by INFJ, who he thinks is rather good company, as long as he is allowed freedom.

ENTP: Pranking INFJ to get her attention and prancing around with ENFP.

INTP: Helping INFJ with the snowman and glaring at her ENTP brother, who isn't being subtle at all.

ESFJ: Ends up making multiples trips back to the house to get hot chocolate.

ISFJ: Follows her ESFJ sister around and brings the cookies.

ESFP: Making snow angels by himself while trying to get ISFJ to join him.

ISFP: Silently watching INFJ put together the snowman, smiling when INFJ remembers the buttons.

ESTJ: Helping make the separate parts of the snowman to be put together at the end. Teaching ISTJ when she comes around to help him.

ISTJ: Going between INFJ and ESTJ to help them with the snowman.

ESTP: Grumbling about the fact that no one wants to play tag with him, but ends up helping ESTJ and INFJ anyway.

ISTP: Somewhere in the house...nobody actually knows where.

     Okay, so for some reason, my Tumblr just went down. I don't know how. Maybe it's a sign I should use other things for once, so I'm looking at this Personality Type List thing. And I'll do one, because it can help me with future posts.

Zodiac Sign: Aries | Taurus | Gemini (dad) | Cancer | Leo | Virgo (sister) | Libra | Scorpio | Sagittarius | Capricorn (mom) | Aquarius | Pisces

MBTI: ESFP | ISFP | ESTP | ISTP (mom) | ESTJ | ISTJ | ESFJ | ISFJ | ENFJ | INFJ (the real deal, not the INFP thinking she's an INFJ thing) | ENFP | INFP | ENTP | INTP (dad) | ENTJ | INTJ

Four Temperaments: Sanguine | Melancholic | Choleric | Phlegmatic (by like a few percent above Melancholic)

Enneagram: The Reformer (Type 1) | The Helper (Type 2) | The Achiever (Type 3) | The Individualist (Type 4) | The Thinker (Type 5) | The Loyalist (Type 6) | The Enthusiast (Type 7) | The Leader (Type 8) | The Peacemaker (Type 9)

Cattell's 16 Factor Test: Warmth | Intellect | Emotional Stability | Aggressiveness | Liveliness | Dutifulness | Social Assertiveness | Sensitivity | Paranoia | Abstractness | Introversion | Anxiety | Openmindedness | Independence | Perfectionism | Tension

Celtic Zodiac Sign: Birch (The Achiever) | Rowan (The Thinker) | Ash (The Enchanter) | Alder (The Trailblazer) | Willow (The Observer) | Hawthorne (The Illusionist) | Oak (The Stabiliser) | Holly (The Ruler) | Hazel (The Knower) | Vine (The Equaliser) | Ivy (The Survivor) | Reed (The Inquisitor) | Elder (The Seeker)

Soul Type: Hunter | Caregiver | Creator | Thinker | Helper | Educator | Performer | Leader | Spiritualist 

1 point less for Spiritualist, OMG, I was so close to being like...NOPE, taking this again.

Hogwarts House: Gryffindor | Hufflepuff | Ravenclaw (I cheated on Pottermore, I'm sorry) | Slytherin

Alignment: Lawful Good | Neutral Good | Chaotic Good | Lawful Neutral | True Neutral | Chaotic Neutral | Lawful Evil | Neutral Evil | Chaotic Evil

I'm actually very surprised. I scored 32 on Lawful Good, 1 point above Neutral Good. Between Law and Chaos, I had 11 Law, 10 Neutral and 3 Chaos. But what's extremely surprising is that between Good and Evil, I got 21 Good, 14 Neutral and 0 Evil. 0? Huh...you watch me. I can do something evil.

MOTIV: Materialist | Offbeat | Thinking | Intimate | Vital

Okay, so segue time! Just some simple explanation for MOTIV and my results as well!

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MOTIV Basics + My Results

     The purpose of this test/system is to help make you more aware of what you perceive to be rewarding and hopefully examine whether those things actually do, and whether you want to continue with your current MOTIV profile.

1. Materialist

My Score: 13% (That's...that's really bad)

Average Score: 54%

Perceived reward: Being more attractive makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Elitist, shallow, fake, external validation addiction

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Failure to connect to others, society and the world

2. Offbeat

My Score: 56%

Average Score: 48%

Perceived reward: Being unconventional makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Putting yourself at too great a risk, endangering your life

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Playing it too safe, being resistant to change

3. Thinking

My Score: 46%

Average Score: 51%

Perceived reward: Being planned out makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Sticking with plans/systems/routines that don't work

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Inability to make or complete long term goals/plans

4. Intimate

My Score: 96% (ALMOST PERFECT SCORE, WOW)

Average Score: 56%

Perceived reward: Serving others makes me happy (Well...IT DOES)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Being taken advantage of, ignoring self, too nice (1. I don't mind being taken advantage of, if it helps you 2. Being self-centred isn't exactly a good thing 3. No such thing as "too" nice)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Refusal or inability to see other's perspective/needs

5. Vital

My Score: 36%

Average Score: 54%

Perceived reward: Being alive makes me happy (if I'm alive and I ain't doing shit, then I'm not happy)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Overcontented-ness, overconfidence 

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored lowly: Depression, poor mental and/or physical health (oops, too late)

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Global 5: Social (34%) | Reserved (66%) | Limbic (60%) | Calm (40%) | Organised (50%) | Unstructured (50%) | Accommodating (90%) | Egocentric (10%) | Non-Curious (48%) | Inquisitive (52%)

Holland Code: Realistic | Investigative | Artistic | Social | Enterprising | Conventional

R-Drive: Narcissism | Unconventionality | Empiricism | Vitality | Othercentricism | Independence | Integrity | Intellect | Stoicism | Orderliness | Dynamism | Activity | Romanticism | Hedonism

Another segue~

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R-Drive Basics + My Results

     R-Drive serves the same purpose as MOTIV and they are often used as companions to each other.

1. Narcissism

My Score: 44%

Average Score: 60%

Perceived reward: External validation makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Elitist, shallow, fake, external validation addiction

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Failure to connect to others, society, the world

2. Unconventionality

My Score: 68%

Average Score: 64%

Perceived reward: Being unconventional makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Abandoning all reason, practicality, security

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Not following your intuition, your internal self (I'm an INFJ, what did you expect from a category to do with intuition?)

3. Empiricism

My Score: 27% (This isn't even the worst)

Average Score: 61%

Perceived reward: Being planned makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Sticking with plans/systems/routines that don't work

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Inability to make or completely long term goals/plans

4. Vitality

My Score: 16% (...I have some sort of depression, okay?)

Average Score: 59%

Perceived reward: Being/knowing who I am makes me happy (I hate being me)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Overcontentedness, overconfidence

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Depression, poor mental and/or physical health

5. Othercentricism

My Score: 100% (Amazing...and I wasn't even trying. It's not supposed to be a good thing though.)

Average Score: 58%

Perceived reward: Helping others makes me happy (My life motto right there, hello?)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Being taken advantage of, ignoring self, too nice (I already argued this)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Refusal or inability to see other's perspective/needs

6. Independence

My Score: 60%

Average Score: 54%

Perceived reward: Being independent makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: No person is an island, trust issues, avoidant

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Overly codependent, can't work/function alone

7. Integrity

My Score: 72% (Oh, wow, surprising)

Average Score: 53%

Perceived reward: Being honest/forthcoming makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Can make yourself enemies

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Pathological dishonesty, self-serving, vanity

8. Intellect

My Score: 77% (Hell, yeah~)

Average Score: 70%

Perceived reward: Intellectual complexity makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Impracticality, alienation from others

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Under-developed mental abilities/capability

9. Stoicism

My Score: 50% (Me?)

Average Score: 49%

Perceived reward: Being calm makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Not caring what others think, egomania

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Erratic emotional system, useless in crisis

10. Orderliness

My Score: 61%

Average Score: 48%

Perceived reward: Being structured makes me happy (Doesn't make me happy...it's necessary)

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Excessive rigidity, inability to be spontaneous

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Excessive disorganisation, inconsistent productivity (I think I scored wrongly)

11. Dynamism

My Score: 78%

Average Score: 48%

Perceived reward: Change makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Not sticking with things, living a transient existence

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Inflexibility, closed off to change

12. Activity

My Score: 27% (lol, I refuse to move)

Average Score: 52%

Perceived reward: Physical exercise makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Exercise addiction/overtraining, body narcissism 

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Obesity, health problems, lethargy (......)

13. Romanticism

My Score: 58%

Average Score: 52%

Perceived reward: Romantic love makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Being codependent, lacking an individual identity

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Fear of authentic intimacy/commitment

14. Hedonism

My Score: 33% (Unromantic and not passionate. OKAY, THANKS TEST)

Average Score: 50%

Perceived reward: Being "high" makes me happy

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored highly: Substance abuse problems, alcoholism, thrill-seeking

Dangerous flaw(s) if scored low: Fear of losing control, pleasure-less life (Yes, I dislike losing control...got a problem with that? Control freak? Yes I am, over myself)

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Dark Triad: Narcissism (1.2/4) [6%] | Machiavellianism (1.9/4) [17%] | Psychopathy (1.1/4) [4%]

Archetypes: Creative | Athlete | Rebel | Caregiver | Visionary | Royal | Performer | Spiritual | Tastemaker | Explorer | Advocate | Intellectual

My face right now...Spiritual. Should have seen that one coming really. Segue but a small one, because this Archetype thing is actually very very extensive.

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Archetype Basics

My Types:

1. Caregiver

Archetype Family: Caring

Other Expressions: Nurturer, Mother, Lover, Sister, Teacher, Rescuer, Homemaker, Heroine, Best Friend, Companion

Life Journey: Care for others in ways they are unable to care for themselves

Unique Challenge: Fear of being thought of as selfish

Lesson to Learn: Learning to help when it's really needed 

Defining Grace: Compassion

Challenge to Self: How can I dedicate more time for myself so I have more stamina to care for others? Can I give myself the freedom to explore what truly makes me happy?

2. Spiritual

Archetype Family: Spiritual

Other Expressions: Mystic, Healer, Seeker (given that INFJ = Mystic, INFJ = Healer, I'm not surprised anymore)

Life Journey: To discover the meaning and purpose of life

Unique Challenge: To create a life that balances my spiritual, emotional and physical needs

Lesson to Learn: To be truthful with myself about who I am and what I believe; to recognise when I'm resisting change in order to remain comfortable

Defining Grace: Humility

Challenge to Self: I will tap into and trust my intuition, and be conscious of where I position matters of the spirit among other life interests

3. Advocate

Archetype Family: Advocate

Other Expressions: Naturalist, Defender, Champion of a Cause

Life Journey: To act as an agent for positive change

Unique Challenge: To find causes that engage my strengths, not my personal agenda

Lesson to Learn: To do what I can, even if it doesn't feel like enough

Defining Grace: Hope

Challenge to Self: I will commit fully to a cause, even if it means pledging my time, energy and money in order to make a difference

     Actually, my 3 types make a very good combination, in my opinion, at least for what I see as life's purpose. The Spiritual family for me to find a larger meaning and purpose of life for all, Advocate to bring that meaning to the people around me and Caregiver to ensure I'm not being a tyrant while advocating. Seems very ideal to me. I like it. Not everyone has more than 1 type, I just scored evenly in all 3. Also, I wonder what's the different between Advocate and Visionary.

Other Types:

4. Creative

Archetype Family: Creative

Other Expressions: Performer, Creator, Storyteller

Life Journey: To explore the heights of imagination through new forms of creativity

Unique Challenge: To overcome the fear of being unoriginal

Lesson to Learn: To develop artistic gifts rather than ignoring them

Defining Grace: Creativity

Challenge to Self: I will develop my talent and express myself without letting fear of failure hold me back and stand by my artistic point of view in the face of criticism

5. Athlete

Archetype Family: Physical

Other Expressions: Competitor, Sportsman, Outdoorswoman

Life Journey: To discover a sense of personal power and identity through developing my body

Unique Challenge: To understand that the body has limits; to pay attention when I'm feeling off-balance and do what I need to get back to my core power zone.

Lesson to Learn: To confront physical vulnerability and accept the reality of aging

Defining Grace: Endurance

Challenge to Self: I will explore my strengths beyond competition

6. Rebel

Archetype Family: Rebel

Other Expressions: Maverick, Feminist, Femme Fatle, Sex Goddess

Life Journey: Break barriers that restrict the human spirit

Unique Challenge: Discover a creative, dynamic and productive way to make your voice heard

Lesson to Learn: Avoid engaging in power struggles as a way of expressing authority. Know the difference between rebellious reactions and rebellious decisions.

Defining Grace: Justice

Challenge to Self: Understand when the rebel in me is controlling my emotions

7. Visionary

Archetype Family: Visionary

Other Expressions: Entrepreneur, Innovator, Pioneer, Guide, Dreamer

Life Journey: To bring the future into the present, and sense the changing impulses of society

Unique Challenge: To remain committed to a new vision in order to bring it to fruition

Lesson to Learn: To believe in my vision, however great or small, and my creative potential to change lives.

Defining Grace: Courage

Challenge to Self: I will envision new possibilities for humanity and recognise when an idea is worth rearranging my life for.

8. Royal

Archetype Family: Royal

Other Expressions: Executive, CEO, Leader, Chief

Life Journey: To learn to use power wisely, productively and responsibly

Unique Challenge: To identify the causes in which to invest my power and influence

Lesson to Learn: To differentiate between authentic and illusory power

Defining Grace: Generosity

Challenge to Self: I will share power in a close relationship, and commit to cooperation and compromise

9. Performer

Archetype Family: Entertaining

Other Expressions: Entertainer, Bon Vivant, Actor, Headliner

Life Journey: To use charm, humour, and wit to enjoy life to the fullest and convey that joy to others

Unique Challenge: To stay the course and not follow each enthusiasm, impulse or emotion

Lesson to Learn: To use excitement and fun to find new and different ways around obstacles

Defining Grace: Exuberance

Challenge to Self: I will keep my drama from veering into melodrama

10. Tastemaker

Archetype Family: Fashion

Other Expressions: Host, Stylist, Goddess, Diva

Life Journey: To become comfortable in my own skin; to derive power from self-esteem rather than the clothes I wear

Unique Challenge: To cultivate my individuality; to form a stylistic point of view that reflects my whole being

Lesson to Learn: To recognise when I'm being judged superficially

Defining Grace: Exuberance

Challenge to Self: I will keep an authentic life that reflects my individuality and empowers me as a person.

11. Explorer

Archetype Family: Discovering

Other Expressions: Adventurer, Trailblazer, Traveller

Life Journey: To follow paths that are self-discovered. Inspire others to explore uncharted territory.

Unique Challenge: To be unafraid to commit: to settling in one place, with one person, and one style of life; to recognise that exploration can be emotional as well as physical

Lesson to Learn: To take the initiative while coordinating with others to break barriers and accomplish great things

Defining Grace: Self-Motivation

Challenge to Self: I will climb every mountain, feel every moment.

12. Intellectual

Archetype Family: Thinking

Other Expressions: Professional, Student, Scholar, Judge

Life Journey: To pursue knowledge for the sake of discovering the truth in all areas of life

Unique Challenge: To recognise when I've locked myself into a line of thinking based on my education or experience; to remain open to new ideas

Lesson to Learn: To learn to listen to my gut, and to discern the differences between reason and rtuth

Defining Grace: Wisdom

Challenge to Self: I will avoid paralysis by analysis